selfie of Kathryn
This isn′t an easy question to answer. I am a wife, mother, daughter, sister, cousin, aunt, niece, friend, math teacher and web developer. These are roles, some of which I perform better than others. I enjoy reading, teaching, gardening, riding bike on the greenways, watching some TV shows and some movies. I enjoy hanging out with my friends and family and having good conversations with them. But who am I?
At birth my parents called me Kathryn Sue Stoltzfus. I later went on to marry my friend, Mark Lee Myers, so I changed my name to Kathryn S. Myers. My children call me Mom. My students call me Mrs. Myers. But who am I?
I am a beggar who has been adopted by the King of kings, the creator of the Universe, and the Father of my soul. I am a beggar because without the grace and mercy of the Father, I would still be outside the gate looking into the mansion and wishing I could come into play. When I look at the requirement of perfection to enter into the Kingdom of Heaven, I fall very short. Most people would look at me and say, ″You're pretty good.″ But when I realize that part of the scripture calls us to ″Love our enemies″ to ″Bless those that curse you″, and to ″Rejoice in our suffering″ as part of the will of the Father, I find it impossible. So I have become a beggar. I desperately need God′s grace and forgiveness, none of which I deserve. I desperately need his strength in my life to change me and to be obedient to the will of the Father, none of which I deserve. So I am a beggar.
But God…. These two words hold such power in my life. You see all He asks from me is that I ask for forgiveness and that I recognize that I am helpless before Him and that I recognize my total dependence on Him. He wants me to surrender my will and my plans to His will and plans for my life. He wants me to believe and trust that He has made a way for me to enter into his Holy presence. Somehow in His divine providence when I am at my most vulnerable condition, He comes in and meets me where I am. Not only does he come outside the gate and meet me, but then he clothes me, feeds me, and adopts me as His very own daughter.
The realization about the relationship between being a beggar and an adopted daughter did not come easily. I have had broken dreams and unmet expectations. It was through disappointment and hardship that the dichotomy between being a beggar and a daughter of the king was solidified and begun to be understood by me. I Peter 4:13 ″But rejoice insofar as you share Christ′s sufferings, that you may also rejoice and be glad when his glory is revealed.″ ESV There are times in my life when emotionally and circumstantially I am disappointed, confused, and feel like I am a million miles from the Father. But as I choose to trust God and rejoice in Him through the hard times it becomes a sweetness and such profound revelation to see God′s miracle working power and true reality in my life.
So who am I? I am a beggar who has been adopted by the King of the Universe. He has met me in some incredible ways, and he is eager to meet everyone who longs to have his life living within them.